Dr. W, "You have bipolar."
My heart knocks on my chest. My thoughts brake to a complete stop.
Dr. W. "I think you have a very mild form or bipolar II.
Whewww. Just the mild form. "What does that mean?"
Dr. "One of the symptoms is a racing mind. Everyone has a racing mind, but people with bipolar II have minds that race longer than the average person."
My mind rewinds to 10 years ago. A park manager swore at me. For over a month I couldn't stop thinking about it. "Doc, about 10 years ago I thought there was something wrong, but I thought it was menopause. So it really wan't menopause but bipolar." Relief. There would be a med for it. Worried. Did I act crazy and didn't even know it?